Exciting News!

I have been working on my very own website! It will be a home for my name and all the things I like to do! It will be a great place for putting together my portfolio and be easily connected. It will almost be my digital resume of sorts.

I'm not really "known" enough to have a website but it may be of use to direct future employers! Plus it is a nice add on to the blog and it gives me a starting base to branch out from. It isn't ready yet, I'm still working on it and making it nice but I think it will be a nice surprise to see.

Which brings me to my other thought of the day... I think I want to change my blog name!

What do you guys think? I have one in mind but I'm not sure. I just don't think Some Blissful Chaos is really doing it for me anymore. I love the meaning behind it but it is time for me to move on.

So the one I am considering is : Theory of Thoughts

Yes? No?

Making your own education

It has now gotten to that point where I really need to figure out what comes next in terms of education. It's been a little bit of a struggle lately, for a number of reasons. I grew up always believing that the next logical step was graduate school. Granted, I didn't start really thinking about it until high school, but you get my drift. 

My parents never told me I had to go to grad school, my father didn't and my mom didn't go to college at all. It isn't a pressure sort of idea, just something I figured would be in the cards for me. Although, I had naive ideas about college in general so yeah, there's that. 

However, about a month ago plus, I applied to a program. American Studies, so it'd be more history than politics or writing but okay. Well, I've gotten no answer because they want to see my final transcript from ASU when I'm done. 

With no plan in place for after I'm done with this degree, it got me thinking. Do I really have to go to grad school? Could I maybe make up my own "masters"? I'd been looking into a number of classes and certificates that you could do for writing, journalism, etc. What if instead of being in a program that has nothing to do with what I really want and will only look good on paper, not translate in real life; I make my own curriculum, if you will. 

Take classes with professionals, get a few certificates online, yeah it will still cost some major money but it would be learning the things I want to learn. 

There is this website called Skillshare, and it is pretty much a way to look up classes in anything (coding to design to cooking to how to live rent free in nyc - yes it's a real class, very popular) and you find classes closest to you. Now when I put in my town the closest was Stamford, and it wasn't writing. So naturally, living in CT, my next thought is one of the writing capitals of the world - New York City. 

There is one writer, Grace Bello, who has a few different classes she teaches, and I literally want to take every single one. There is one later this month on copy writing, something I've been interested in, and I think I am going to sign up! 

I am going to try to take control of my education and do what I want to do. Get crazy and wander the city taking writing classes. It sounds like a dream to me!

Writing Project

One of my iPhone backgrounds!

So, it has been decided that I am going to take on a new project, and while I feel nuts for doing it when I'm so busy already, it will be good for me. 

I'm going to write an entry everyday about something/anything. I will pick a word at random and just write. It won't be journalistic but more storied pieces. Fiction, if you will, but not really because it'll be based on my experiences no doubt. 

I'm excited for this because I don't always release my thoughts and feelings like I should and this will be a minor change to that habit. Plus, in order to be a better writer, you have to keep writing. I've already done a piece for today, you'll find it under the "Writings" tab at the top of the blog. 

I hope you enjoy!

Random 5.12

Come out, come out, where ever you are.
Let me see the real you.
Are there cracks on that tough exterior?
Can I break through?

Don't be afraid, don't be scared
To let me see how you really feel
To show me how you feel about me
Let your heart be the one I steal

It is never easy to break down those walls
But if you trust me, let them fall.
The hurt you're afraid of is real
I know this because I've been there.

I won't hurt you, I don't want to
I just want to see what is true
If there is love between us
If there is love in you.

Creative writing piece

Found this a while ago, I liked it so I thought I would share it with you guys! Hope you enjoy :)

Still calmness that comes out of nowhere
Unexplainable stillness in a place that used to be my heart
Now just a deep dark hole, what am I to do.
Can you help me fill it with all the things that are supposed to be there?
Can you just love me?

Sunshine, love, and happiness are the things missing,
and I don't know where to look.
Inability to be happy or just being stubborn.
Hard to let yourself love when you don't know if you love yourself.
Confidence is a smokey mirror.

Putting on an act is easier than reality.
If you know how to break the barrier, please do.
Break me down to little pieces, but be the one who can put them back together too.
That way, I can be yours.
Let me be your crazy mess.

Surprise! I'm baaack...

Well, well, well, we meet again old friend. Okay so yes, I've taken a long break from this but I'm back and ready to roll. There have been a bunch of things happening so I will do a recap.

First of all, I'd like to mention that I'm dying for the umpteenth time this year. I tried a new foundation on Monday and I instantly broke out in hives and redness. It is Wednesday night and I'm still broken out and itchy as itchy could be. I honestly would rather be in pain right now, than itchy, the problem is that it is everywhere. Ears, face, neck, legs, back, eyes and yeah you get the picture.

Other than dying a slow and itchy death, I've been hard at work trying to get this semester done and over with. There is 10 more days and I will have a month off before Summer classes...boo. However, that means I only have 8 classes left in my degree!

In other school related news, I found my ultimate dream masters program. It also happens to be at my dream school: NYU. The program is a joint MA in International Politics and Journalism...um can you say AMAZING?!? I would absolutely die if I could get into that program. However, I'm still a ways away from that :(

I had my 2nd interview on the 3rd with Public Allies! It went really well, I was happy with it even if it was a 3 hour group interview. Major downside? I have to wait until the end of May to hear anything...

Work is work and now that it is nicer out it seems as though it is getting a little more crazy. I think end of the school year fever is starting to affect the children. But there really is no blaming them, we all are starting to feel that way.

Things haven't been going amazing lately, we've been getting some not so good news on the health front as far as my family goes. My dad is having major issues with his back, and my mom needs surgery again eventually. My shoulder is still not where it should be either which is pretty disappointing. My family goes through hell, but we manage to keep together either way, and I'm thankful for that.

I have had a lot on my mind lately, and I feel like I need to come back and write again. Even if it has nothing to do with what is going on, writing is therapeutic. It helps me forget things and it helps me focus too. Sometimes, all you want to do is talk to that one person but it is just a whole lot easier to talk to a blank page or screen. It isn't as intimidating, at least for me. It is a fresh start in a world where that rarely ever happens...

Thursday: Social Media

So my recent love on the social media scene has been Pintrest. If you don't know what it is, it is literally like having a virtual cork bored for pictures of anything and everything. It can get a little addicting. You can like the "pins" of others, follow other people and repin what they put on their sites. You can also have separate boards for different things. For example, if you wanted to have a clothing board, a interior design board, and anything else.

Here is a picture of one of my boards:

The set up is really sleek and simple which I love and it lets the colors in the pictures pop so much more :)

Another site that I had discovered a while ago and just went back to is 750words.com It is this great site where you can write freely. It is sort of like an online journal. It keeps track of how many days you write, if you write everyday in a row, how many words, and much more. The goal is to write at least 750 words a day. It is a open white space so it is really easy to start typing and get carried away. You can earn badges on the site too for how much writing you do, how fast, etc.

One of the best things about this site is that it takes note of the things you write about, they call it "your subconscious"-- what your mood seems to be while writing, words you write a lot, and it sort of gives you a look into the type of writing you do. Sometimes an entry will be more negative and it will tell you that. It notes how much you swear, or how positive you're being. It is incredible how much you can learn.

The layout is very minimalistic. I think it is a great way to get motivated to write, and learn about yourself in the process. I really want to try to get into this for real.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

Changing it up

So I'm sitting in a nail salon getting a pedicure right now. It's my happy birthday present to me haha even if my birthday is not until Friday. I was thinking though last night about my blog and what I really wanted to do with it. I think I might start a schedule for the blog and dedicate each day to a specific topic. I enjoy having a personal blog and a political one but until I can really get into writing political stuff a lot more I may just incorporate both.

Since I know I'll want to write about more than one thing, I will probably write a main daily post and then smaller posts about anything else.

I'll have to sit down and map it out but I think this will really help me get into my writing.

Tumblr

So on top of writing this blog and my political blog, I have a Tumblr. I'm obssessed....so go check it out :)

Go to this place

Writing piece

the stars and the moon hover peacefully while our breath is carried away in the wind. the chill in the air sends shivers down our spines but the warmth between us is there. hold me close, don't let go. tell me I'm beautiful, tell me how much I mean to you, tell me I'm yours. speak what you feel, don't hold it in. if you can't find the words then show me, grab my hand, kiss me hard, look into my eyes, but let me know. if there is no words to be found and no way to express it..just find that one way to let me know, I'm that special.